When did you know you were ready or that it was time for a second child? And for all my family and friends reading this, NO, I am not pregnant, but my husband and I are certainly starting to think about when we might want to start trying for a second child. To be honest, I have been thinking about it for awhile, but keep getting scared at the thought of how much harder having two children will be than just the one I have now. I have always wanted to be a mother and actually grew up with my friends telling me that I was the “mom” of the group. And like many other women, my girlfriends and I all played a role in Sex and the City
- and I was always Charlotte York. If you know me, this is no surprise.
However, as I’ve mentioned in several of my other blog posts, being a mother is the hardest, yet most rewarding job I’ve ever had. I love my son beyond words and think to myself sometimes, “If I had a second child, how could I possibly love them as much as I love D?” It scares me to think this way. I would want to love my children equally, but I can’t imagine loving anyone the way that I love D. Look at him, he’s so darn cute!
It also scares me to start all over again. I am in awe sometimes of those who have had multiple children so close in age. How did they do it? How did they not have a complete meltdown (they must have had an amazing support group I keep telling myself!) As someone who suffered from slight postpartum depression, I’m petrified that I’ll go through it again. One day I’ll get the courage to talk more about it, but until then, just know that I was scared, sad and felt completely helpless; which was such a horrible feeling to have after just having had a healthy, beautiful baby boy.
We’ll figure it out. We know we want D to have a sibling and I honestly can’t wait to have that beautiful baby bump again. I guess we just need a little push to get us to that point.
Any advice you’d like to share is much appreciated.